What Happens Now???

   I've been hear before, with those very same words...what happens now?  My husband hates that I haven't let go of the military, but how can I when my life brings me back to the same feeling I felt that day???  Sigh, back then,8 years ago, I already had my plan, register for a college in Texas, buy a house and start my new life...but of course, life, God, karma, something, whatever brought on the precious multiple sclerosis, and yes, I talk about MS a lot, but how can I not, when my left arm is struggling to move?

   So now, here I am dying of cold with this difficult snow and you can't deny that Jesus is not happy with us right now.  Okay, on the serious side, I'm moving to warming weather which also brought back different memories.  Britt has always asked "where do you want to live?"  Sigh, I would have originally said Germany, but I'm starting to believe that that is where I got MS, but not anymore, since we are going to a desert, it finally came to me that the first place I felt I was home in, was Arizona...a very brutal sun that left a mean farmer's tan (there was no way to look cute in a dress with that!)  Then came Afghanistan, with extremely hot summers and very cold winters and yet, I use to love staying out to see all the stars out there.  So now I'm off to Vegas a place I have always consider Satan's playground BECAUSE I know that weather is going to make me feel a little better.

   So, I have decided to give myself 2 years, just 2 quick years to sample the weather knowing full well that the sun, while CAN make me feel better might just affect my Durkish Delight might have the opposite outcome and his Milenoma might come back but with God's help everything will be okay!!!  IF everything is good to go, I am willing to start convincing Britt to have a child with me (he doesn't want a kid, but who wouldn't want another ME)!!!  I am well aware that having a child with my MS is going to be like asking to die, BUT I'm a tough girl...I will put my health in God's hands and rest assure knowing I have life insurance and my family will be taken care of!

God Bless,
Emme