Dangerous Memories

How do I even start to explain myself,when my brain is badly damaged and my emotions can't always be trusted.  I continue to tell myself to stop looking into the past...it's back there for a reason...the job, never liked it, the friends disappeared, and in life, I always say that honestly in these 30 years I've lived I've accomplished more then I had ever imagined, so stop, fucked up brain girly emotions.  IF IT WAS MEANT TO BE I WOULDN'T BE RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW in this beautiful house with a beautiful family.  I hope and pray that the rest of you are enjoying your lives too!  Secret squirrels, if you miss me, call, write I'm still here just as moody, but I'm done.  We've all walked away and have been doing well, so why look back into 8 years ago...there's nothing there, not anymore!

Advice

Although I have mentally written to other blogs, I wanted to stop and give you some advice that I told myself since I was in high school...once you've landed on your feet...trust in God and make the best of your surroundings.  I think growing up in a Disney world, we search for the happily ever after that we forget, that every breath we take should bring a smile to our face!  You brought yourself to this point your in, to deny, to turn away from the choice you made, is honesty to admit that you did it all wrong.  If you're anything like me, you'll know you didn't!

God bless,
Emme